logically, bucky knows that steve doesn’t need an inhaler anymore. he knows that steve can run circles around sam and never once pause to catch his breath, that he can spar with natasha without breaking a sweat, that he can bench press several motorcycles if he wanted to. he knows all that. but his therapist (one of sam’s buddies from the VA and probably the most patient person he’s ever met) told him to embrace the aspects of his past that make him happy, that make him feel like bucky barnes again. so he does. he sews a little pocket into his suit so he can take the inhaler with him when they go on missions, just in case something happens
something does happen, of course, but not what bucky expects
in the aftermath of another long battle filled with gunshots and danger and lasers (fucking lasers, what is his life), bucky is on pedestrian patrol. which basically translates to ‘don’t let these idiots do anything to endanger themselves,’ a surprisingly difficult job since you’d think that people would have the common sense to stay away from life-threatening falling debris (they did not)
bucky’s trying (and failing, bystanders are the worst) to keep the people from milling around any precarious looking wreckage, when he hears the familiar wheeze of someone struggling to get air into their lungs. he glances around, locates where the harsh breathing is coming from (a kid, no more than 10 or 11) and abandons pedestrian patrol, walking quickly over to the pile of rubble the kid is leaning against
bucky scrambles to unzip the little pocket that houses the inhaler and walks up to the kid cautiously, holding out his hands to show that he’s there to help. the kid just looks at him with wide eyes, so bucky comes closer until the inhaler is pressed to her lips and one of his hands is rubbing her back gently. he talks to her while her breathing steadies, just little things like how much he loves her shirt (“i’m a big black widow fan too”) and how she’s such a brave warrior (“thor would be proud”) and how she should always carry her inhaler with her (“there’s nothing weak in taking care of yourself, ok? now promise me you’ll always have one with you”). the kid, whose name bucky learns is actually lucy, is quiet for most of it, giggling a little every now and then, but mostly concentrating on breathing slow and deep, just like bucky says
in total it only takes about fifteen minutes for lucy to come down from the asthma attack, but when bucky gets up from where he’s been kneeling beside her he sees forty pairs of eyes (and about that many cameras), staring at them, including his teammates. he turns his back on them for the time being, giving lucy a hand up and helping her get all the dust off of her clothes, then takes her to her mother, who was being treated for minor injuries when her daughter ran off. bucky accepts her thanks and gives her his personal mailing address so that he and lucy can send each other letters. they part with a hug and a fist bump
when bucky sees steve back in the tower that night after everyone’s showered and changed into clothes that don’t smell like lasers (lasers for fuck’s sake), steve raises an eyebrow and mouths “inhaler?” at him from across the noisy dining room. bucky just shakes his head and smiles slightly, making a mental note to stock up on inhalers the next time he makes a grocery run
I’m wondering if I’m the only one who heard Arthur whisper ‘Merlin—' and instantly thought of the scene beforehand where Arthur told Merlin he never wanted him to change. Merlin has killed before, only for Arthur. But Arthur has never seen this side of Merlin, never known for him to be a killer. So while Merlin had never really in essence changed, to Arthur he had. The shock in his eyes when he watched Merlin thrust that sword into Morgana and the gasp that accompanied it. In his final moments of life, he realized all that Merlin had done, had sacrificed, all for him. Only for him.
"Only for you, Arthur."
Merlin, to Arthur, had changed. Only for him.
#and Arthur’s thinking back to the Merlin who first came to Camelot#the one who cried over unicorns and hated hunting for its senselessness#who valued life and wouldn’t hurt a fly#so innocent and hopeful#and then he sees what Merlin has become#hardened#almost ruthless#unhesitating in the face of what needs to be done#even when it’s killing a former friend#he sees how much Merlin really has changed#in his service and in his name#all of that innocence lost#so thoroughly disillusioned#and it hurts Arthur to realize that HE is the reason for that change#that Merlin has had to harden himself like this because of him#to keep him safe#that is the moment when Arthur understands the enormity of Merlin’s dedication#and everything that Merlin’s sacrificed for him#i’m gonna go curl up in a corner and cry now thanks#Merlin#BBC Merlin
But I also feel like when Arthur’s asking him not to change he’s asking him not to become like Morgana, in a sense. I mean, this is where Arthur realises that Merlin has magic and he probably realises the difference between them. Morgana discovered she had magic she began hating Arthur, but Merlin managed to continue being good and continue loving him despite all the horrible things he’s said over the years about magic and sorcerers. And I think he’s asking him to always be like that… to always be able to love so wholly and be brave in the face of adversity and all that shit.
chris & scarlett playing tic-tac-toe at the london press conference
Pure Happiness. (x)
Of course they know.
sincerely, a person who has been on prozac for 9 years
this is in response to some shitty stuff i’ve seen on my dash recently. it’s super simplified, so if you’d like to know some more indepth stuff on how exactly it works, google it—OR BETTER YET actually talk to a mental health doctor psychiatrist person wow
#JIM YOU LITTLE SHIT #DOES YOUR FLIRT-O-MATIC EVER TURN OFF #NO? #I THOUGHT NOT
Hello, anon, and thank you for the question.
This topic has been studied by researchers for years. There are three prevailing theories that I will relay to you now.
1. It keeps him on the ground.
You may notice in the gif above that Chris’ leg starts to rise as he laughs, possibly a precursor to his entire body undergoing a sort of lift off due to his joy. Chris then employs his upper body strength to force himself to obey the laws of gravity.
2. To check on his physique.
As you may be aware, anon, it takes a lot of hard work to maintain a superhero body. Chris is concerned that in the time he has spent sitting down, sans working out or eating, he has lost muscle mass. Understandably, he feels the need to make sure that he is still a specimen.
3. Object permanence.
Object permanence is a term applied to the understanding that an object still exists even when you cannot see it. Chris closes his eyes when he laughs, making him unable to see that he has not disappeared. By grabbing his left boob, Chris knows that he has not somehow ceased to exist.
I hope this helps.